I got all of yesterday off to spend with Kala for no reason. I say on my ass at home waiting to hear from her or stop by. I'm not angry as much as I am hurt, neglected, annoyed, and slightly frustrated. Thus is love. Part of life.

I'm not real big on the bible or god thing. I have many belifes some from all religons i guess. Even though im technicaly/officaly lutheran. I belive in enlightlen ment, balance, nature, flows, god/s.... but this is a verse i heard at my cousins wedding. It has stuck with me and stands ever so true.

1 Corinthians 13
₄Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud ₅or rude. Love does not demand its own way. Love is not irritable, and it keeps no record of when it has been wronged. ₆It is never glad about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. ₇Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.

There is some good stuff in the bible its just theres a lot of other stuff too.

9:31pm: Its amazing how a matter of moments with someone can make all things better.

on another note. Heard from Stephanie today. Havent heard or seen her since she left for Alaska a few months ago. She is and has been one of my if not my best friend for years now. Gonna have to go vist her sometime. Prolly next summer, when its warm up there, I dont do Cold.

I get to go on an plane, never been before. August 30th and Sept 2nd. To Fly down to Sacramento to see the lovely Kala again. So a new countdown begins....

CRAP... I forgot to publish...

Slept great once i got there. Was up til around 1. Was with Kala til just before midnight. Good night.

I sometimes wonder how much i can say here in good taste or if i will offend anyone. I know only a few people read these. I also dont want to somehow offend someone i know or hurt anyone with what i may say. So i find my self not saying everything i could. This is here for me to voice what i have to say and let anyone who cares or finds this read about whats going on with me. But its also a lot to just open up and lay out on a website. Somethings are best left unsaid and between a few people....

Minor updates should be happening soon.... I think...

DAMN IM HAPPY!!!!

1:50pm: well was. havent heard from her all day again. I just miss her and want to spend as much time as i can with her before she has to head back to Sacramento. I will take what I can get. Its quite disapointing. Not to mention tourture to know shes around but I cant see her cause i dont know where she is nor have I heard from her. I dont totaly blame her. But maybe i should. So much for the plans we had for thismorning.... someone help. this sucks. Id like some persepctive or support or anything i could get....

maybe i will add comments to this again... maybenot cause nonone ever poseted execpt Collyn.

well it would be far higher than 7 had the backup gone ok. stupid CDRW CRC errors... lucky 7 maybe. Slept pretty good last night but work will kinda suck cause i got a XP class to prep for thats later this week but the class is full until then so i have to get it setup before stuff starts to get going around there. I'm going to try to get tomorrow off so i can have some time to spend with Kala. Didnt get to see or hear from her at all yesterday. Hope she had a good time doing what ever.

hopefuly work will be short and sweet. it may be a lil challengeing but thats fine by me. as long as its not tediously stressful and full of stupididy.... and the full moon has passed so it shouldnt be quite as bad as things got last week or the week before... people were tring to attened in portland that were being held in salem. Other where complaining that they had to use laptops for one of the classes. While others cried about haveing to turn their heads to see the over head screens. It gets wierd around there when the full moon comes around....

11:36pm: HEHE WHEEEE! HEHE

lucky indeed

Went to the coast with Kala, Brian, Kirtanya, and Scott. Had a pretty good time. After that we went to Kells in Portland. Food was alright, i dont think im into Irsish foods. The band was great, as well as the company.

Had some good dreams last night too...

today we got some family crap to take care of at my dads place. but on the upside i get to see my old man and prolly drive some and prolly plan on heading off with in a week or so to do 4 wheeling. Something i know nothing about as i have never ridden/driven anything other than a Car or Go-Cart. and my experince driving Cars is rather limmited as i have only driven stick like 3 times and its been years since i have.

listening to: Can't take my eyes off of you By: Lauryn Hill]

12:53pm: My wallet is all crusty from jumping in the Ocean yesterday... forgot to take it out.. and my watch band is all salty.

7:37pm: I almsot forgot. Some limo pulled up to us on I5 on the way to Portland and there was some chick look at me/us in the car. She waves, I wave, smiles, the whole time i am asking my fellow passengers in the packed Honda Civix (4 others) what in the hell is going on and why is this happening. and then a few other hands doing the rocker thing out the window and a couple guys holding up beverages of some sort. Then said girl trys to flash us, but the tinted window was blocking most of the goods... they passed us we caught back up and i flashed them my chest and we passed. They come back to pass us and she hangs full on out the window and flashes us again. my 1st time seeing boobies on I5 or in a car... interesting.

Saw Kala for like 10 min yesterday. Before she met up with her other friends then went to Portland to eat with them. Waiting to hear from her again.And today is my only real free day I am gonna have for a while. so hopefuly we can make it count for something.

Slept really good last night had like 3 dreams all weird. They are fading now but they were interesting...

I need to setup the archive page and links on here... shouldnt be to big of deal. just a matter of doing it.

oh incase I forgot to mention it the photos are back up... I may see about bringing back the comments from backup land but prolly wont. but please comment...

A day ive been waiting for all week. The last day of the week. And another great factor of the day is Kala arvies sometime later this afternoon.

Slept pretty good last night. Had a dream i over slept so as a result i actualy kept waking up in the 5o-clock hour... no biggie though.

but i should prolly get dressed and ready for a few hours of work. Cause i know they have some stupid crap for me todo today. Something about getting intouch with Community colleges and setting up videoconfrencing for distance learning. It sounds facinating and intresting but i dont think it will pan out....

9:51am: hour and a half left of work. then i get to do lunch with co-workers celibrating another birthday. I really hate having to do these lunches. Its usualy bad enough to just work with these 5 women but to have to eat with them and hear about shoping, menopasuse, dating, children, husbands, ex-husbands etc.... SUCKS FUCKING ASS!

today has toatly blown so far. im irratable for some reason and semi pissy
i gott turn it around but when you have people telling you to call other people to set some stupid shit that you dont know anything about up its not that easy.

Tahash'ss (pronouceds Tasha) is a FUCKING IDIOT!!!! she had trouble using the god damn telephone the other day. Talks to her self about nothing and RESPONDS! She has trouble using MS word 2000 and trys to use a word 6.0 for dummies book and wonders why the book doesnt seem to have or show what she is needing to do.... Word 6.0 was out in like 92-93 or something like that. THANK GOD ITS FRIDAY!!!

now if work would only end so i can go home, play some loud music clean my room and wait for the lovely Kala. Damnit im in a pissy mood and i dont like it.
even my typing sounds angry. fuck this fuck work fuck co-workers fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.... damn damn damn.... maybe the week was just too long and there has been too much stupididity around me this week. I blame the full moon of the other night.... and stupid people around me....

still far to much time left with co-workers for the day. i still have to have the dreaded lunch. and its at a sea food place. I dont even like seafood. im not gonna be eating much if anything. and Chris won't be going but i dont blame him for not going. and he doesnt work with them. lucky bastard. oh well he is going to the birthday party tomorrow.

Gah and family stuff this weekend. oh well its my dad and i like him.

5:16pm: doing mutch better now. Still no Kala. I want one of these.

Didn't get a damn thing done on molly yesterday. Didn't get much done at work. All and all a nonproductive day. Hell i still havent beat that level in Warcraft 3... Maybe i will work on molly or clean my room today... I gotta get those pictures backonline. I may move them to another local on the server and thats part of the reason I havent done anything yet. Cause I can't decide on where to move them or if to move them. Or i if i wanna put something diffrent up at the root of this address or just the pictures again... e-mail me or message with sugestions.

1:50pm: been home since before 11 thismorning. havent gotten shit done other than taken a nice long nap. Im still kinda tired. I should get to Cleaning my room as we are now speaking of hours until the lovely Kala arives....

maybe il take another nap..

I managed to piss my server off today... I was rebuilding the tumbnails but i tried to get it to do to much at once and i managed to lock it up for 4 hours while it chooked and ran out of memory.

pretty much half way done with the week.
not a bad week so far. and its only gonna get better.

I will be tweeking how this place looks (colors and little things) within the week.
and working on the other templates so it all looks the same... or too my liking at least... gotta figure out the comments part of MT still but no biggie...

7:20pm: i gotta clean my room... but um. i dont want to and i work better under pressure... maybe tomorrow. or friday after work. Ive been so busy with eather warcraft3 or working on molly when i am home and running around doing whatever with chris when im not home...

met Tiffany today. (Chris' date to phantom of the opera).... Shes nice. Too bad Chris isnt intrested.

I finaly did it. Upgraded from Redhat 7.2 to 7.3 on my server "Mollymillions".

Sadly though there were casualties. It seems the CD-RW I backed everything up to is fucked up. Therefor have lost lots of data, this includes all the old log entrys some photos (not many)...

the pictures shuold be back soon depending on where i put them...

no longer using greymatter. now using moveable type. its not too bad so far. much harder to setup but now that ive done it wont be soo bad...

3days... nearly 2...