I don't think I will be doing much celebrating as I'm not at even 75% of standard helth. I am doing much better still though, but i guess it could be the ibprofin I took sometime around 6:30am.. Swallowing is getting easier, I dont sound so weird to my self anymore and my calfs no longer feel quite so funny when going up stairs.

Any newyears resolutions?

2:20pm: PHP... sounds kinda like a drug doesn't... When your as geeky as I and getting into it seeing its power and such its kinda like a drug. Just makes you want to learn more and do more with it. It makes sooo much possible...

7:50pm: This is by far the lamest newyears I've had in ages. I think even lamer than the one i worked through when i was at MSA... Oh well I have all year to make something better of it and plenty more nights to have to not suck.... But I've made progress on a new project i'm actualy really likeing how its taking shape...

Getting better...I think... Fever seems to have gone away. Swalling is getting a lil easier. My voice is all fucked up still. I slept through the night last night which is more than I can say about the night before.

Sitting at work waiting for it to be over. Kinda disapointed cause I was supposed to hang out with Kim sometime this afternoon but I think I'm gonna have to give her a rain check on that. which kinda sucks cause it will prolly be a while before we get to hang out again.

So what are your plans for newyears?
mine are as follows: none.

8:15am: I tend to forget when I get sick I often don't look sick but can still feel like shit. I think I've only really looked as bad as I've felt a few times 1) sinus infection back in my sophmore year of HS 2) working nights at waferworld just screwed my sleep and body all the hell up...

BT is good stuff...

Not well. Sick. Ick
The feaver has seems to have subsided for now.
I'm gonna go now cause I don't want to just sit here and bitch about how I feel.

Until yesterday I had never missed an update/post/entry. No matter. I was off having a good ol time. Strange, odd, slightly confusing but by no means bad, well I don't think so anyways.

I managed to disapere for a day and hang out with someone new. I think it was one of the more spontaious things I've done in a while. I think I needed it.

10:51pm: A dog bit me in the ass today. I got new headphones. I think I'm getting sick, feels like strep. I have no medical coverage. But I had a great time yesterday and the day before.

I have a few days todecide if I'm gonna do new years in Portland or not. I'm gonna have to talk to a couple people see what their plans are and check a couple things out.

I was paid a huge compliment lastnight. :) I think its weird how a request and a reason for a request of someone can be a compliment.

I also think i need to get some of my shit in order. Just a feeling I've sorta had the last few days. Maybe longer. I just gotta figure out how and what goes where and when etc, much eaiser said than done.

2:01pm: I've recently noticed how messy Mollys file system has gotten. Most of it because I am lazy and didn't do much planing or setup. Always just enough to get shit working rarely any more than that. The result is just a nonuniform mess of links, copys, locations, that are in no sort of order but still there and functioning. I really should take some of this free time and a) clean her up.. b) Start from a clean build reinstall Redhat 7.3, I'm gonna wait for a while on 8 as for a few of the pacakges/programs/modules/etc... are not quite up to snuff. Which basicaly means no photogallery's which is Mollys main function... On the other hand things are working, so no NEED to fix things other than for cleanup and for things to make more sence etc...

I never make a good haul but thats cause its always itty bitty expensive crap that I want. But its not about the hauls and the loot. I somehow think we all know this and I don't need to go in to preach mode.

Merry Christmas everyone.

Thank you all.

Have you all been good little boys and girls? I think i've been pretty good.
well no matter. I just hope you all have a great hoilday season no matter where you are or what your hoildays or relgions may be.

So there are only 2 classes this week. Which means I work all of 2 days this week. So rough I tell you. And things look like class number 2 wont be going cause low enrollment. So maybe just today of work. Sweet...

So I rebuilt HoneRyders home page. I found that IE doesnt handle PNG images very well at all. It totaly screws up with transpent colors and values. Piece of junk Internet Explorer. I also revived/rewrote a few scripts on her and found more issues that I have to work out with Apache 2.0 and PHP 4.whatever RH 8 ships with.

1:40pm: Yep. One day work week. Man my next paycheck is gonna suck butt. Oh well. I got about 4 pounds (here is the small version) of chocolate in my desk at work. I should be stocked for some time... 6 day weekend. sweeet.

6:12pm: I'm about an hour and 10 minuets in to a 7 hour 27 min. 9 sec. Mp3. Its cool. I have had this mp3 sinice at least march. I had no idea i even had it, its 511MegaBytes, its transtastic though...

7:45pm: yep still listening to the 7+ hour mp3. Its still good... I think i have a new goal. at some point I want to go 24 maybe more hours with constantly hearing music... right now i sometimes have several when im in my room and or sleeping as i will leave the radio on. but i mean a full 24 hours. it could be tricky. it could be fun. i may have to do it. i may have to document it.

8:44: I found more info about this epic track.. which can be found here

The more I get into electronica and all its lovely subgeneres. The more i want to be a part of it. Learn to spin, mix, etc. The only problem is a Technics 1200 starts around $500 and ya need 2 of them. Not to mention a cross fader and a shit load of vinal. And we wont even mention the other looping/sampeling gear. Basicaly you have to sell an arm or 2 to get in but then you cant spin cause you got no damn arms. In theory once your good you can make it all back in a couple of gigs. Which is pretty sweet but thats assuming you got something going on in your area of wich will to spin at. (ahem not salem)... There are cheeper decks to get get but why go cheap when your just gonna go get the 1200s after you make some dough in the 1st place? And do you really wanna learn on sometihng inferiour? i didnt think so. oh well. I guess I will just keep listening and dreamin. Maybe one of these days ill find some good software.

Has December been screwed up for anyone else? If its not one thing its another. If it not work stress its emotional if its not emotional is mental stress, some times a combination of any of the 2 or 3. I'm pretty sure everyone has had some shit go on this month. Some more than others. Just rest assured it will eventualy lightenup and or stop. Its just a matter of time.

I have pretty much confirmed my erlier suspissions of Paul Oakenfold owning Perfecto Records. As i got a Perfecto Collection last night and the back of the book as a Pauls Sig on it.

I'm getting ready to raid my desktop. now to find a place for all the files that i need to back up.

10:39am: Ive managed to find a place to back most of the stuff up. It just leaves me with other problems. Such as where to put the OS now that i have filled the drive that was gonna have the OS with backups.... So now i must build the RAID array. Then somehow boot some sort of OS move everything from OS drive to the RAID array then reboot and build the OS. I dont wanna lose all that music. I will keep you posted (as if you care) because I am going to be doing a fair share of waiting today.

11:36am: RAID array built. building partitions on it now. then formating then moving stuff then reloading Windows 2k maybe Redhat 8.0 too..

12:00pm: Files moving ever so slowly from one drive to the next. I hope my file names arent mangled and fucked up... that would make me very sad and upset. But things seem to be moving along nicely so far...

1:01pm: I stoped copying the files cause it was taking too long so i started using ghost, this also insures that the file names will be remain intacked (pretty sure anyways)... and i still got something like 50min of this crap left. But my new CDs are hella good.

I have found the proof ive been looking for about Paul starting perfecto.

1:45pm: about 10 min left of file moving/coping left (for now i still got other stuff backed up else where)... Then I can load the OS or OSes. I still havent decided if I want to do just 2k or maybe XP alone or have it dual boot Redhat 8. It would be strange to not have a dual boot system. I will prolly just go with 2k my laptop dual boots and I have access to my servers when i need linux for something, and im lazy.

3:51pm: RAIDed. Most systems go. Just some more software toinstall but the important stuff is ready to go. As i feared the Soundblaster is still picking up noise from the bus and it may be worse than before. I belive its a known issue and well I can deal with it. I got other computers that i can have play music for me no problem.

So far so good. Now to do something else with the rest of my day...

6:28pm: GOOD news for all my bandwidth challenged Brethren and sistren types. I now have a copy of my photo gallery in small form.

9:11pm: I swear this is the last update. I just wanted to tell you it took for fucking ever to make the small images for the small gallery. Just now finished. I'm sure my poor server is quite pissed at me for making her process over 1000 images of various sizes down to small so those of us with out cable or DSL can see the pics in a timely manner. I seriously hope you like it. Please try it i just used and possibly wasted 3 hours of my life on it.

Honey got enhancements. From 200GB to 300GB online storage space, RedHat 8.0 from 7.3. HoneyRyder is mostly recovered. Her crital services are back anyways, plus a couple new ones that only chris and I know about or get to use. I have to rebuild a few things but hey its my own fault for not saving them in the 1st place.

It amazes me how much good music I discover on honey sometimes. Often its stuff I put there and never really checked out real well before i put it there. I've been listening to a lot of BT and some Paul Oakenfold lately and some other stuff too.

I can't wait to get my self an Ipod so i can take bunches of musics with me.

Work is extra slow to day. 1 class 3 students. And only one other person in the office. really quite.

My GPS has returned to me after being gone for the better part of 2 years. With waypoints from places like Nepal, Thailand, and LAX and many many more. One more work day of this week, one next week then 3 days off then work another day. then more time off... Still have to take care of the gifts for the gift exhcange at work. but thats no biggie.

I'm wondering if i should just keep posing in the after noon or evening. As stuff happens or tends to happen then and in the AM I'm tired and worky still not quite ready to be facing the day etc. hmmm...

I seriously need to make updates to some of the stuff around here....

6:33pm: I'm at Whiteys. Wes workin on HoneyRyder. Our file server which is about to have 300GigaBytes online. Ludicrous you may say. I say nay. Its one of those things you can never have too much of, like chocolate or um other things. Im sure we can all think of a few.

I find my self staring blankly at my empty moveabletype entry screen searching for inspiration something to move me. I find plenty thats moves me in one way or another. But not the ways I'm looking to be moved. So I sit and search more. Part of me wants to put every last detail about whats going on with me up and out there. But its only part of me that wants to do that. There are other parts that don't. I value my privacy a great deal. But I also want to try and show people that may or may not know me something beyond what they think or know of me. So i often find my self in a slight moral delema of chosing to sharing the details of my life and the others around me or not. What a tangled web i seem to un wittingly weave for my self. I never thought something such as this could complicate things nor be a source of comlications.

3:19pm: There are some newer pictures up...

Yesterday I had never been so thankful for Mondays. Even if was supposed to have it off i had most of it off. I'm still kinda screwed up as far as sleep goes but mostly back to normal. 4 Day work week whoohoo. It should be a fairly mellow rest of month. Now if could only figure out what to tell my dad to get me for x-mas as he has been calling and asking and i have no requests. It kinda sucks. Ideas?

I gots stuff to figure out and do. nothing im looking too forward to either. Gonna have to wait and see though too i guess.

I'd be pissed but I had too good of a time last night. I'd be pissed but i also didn't get much sleep. I'm at work. Cause someone monkeyed with something they shouldn't have. Bastards. At least i get paid.

11:04am: It was a great show. He had 2 opening acts, 2 DJs so they spun upuntil about 9:30 then Paul starting spinning for like an hour or so. He Leaves stage for a few min then the projector fires up with some clouds moving along to the opening to a prodigy song then the bass riff from the song kicks in only its live from someone who has appeared on stage. When the bass started lighting struck on the 10+ foot screen with each note played. then a drumer apperes and paul comes back and they contuine on for another hour or so. It was a great show. Far diffrent than anything i'd seen before. Such fun. Never have i seen the crystal so packed or active.

8 hours from now I will be at the crystal-ball room in Portland with my large headed friend Chris and the always fun and cute Kim, listening to someone open for or even Paul Oakenfold. Should be a good damn time... Haven't done a concert in a long long time.

So I tell chris about DAV and he asks why I haven't got it setup/working yet cause it sounds cool. Only he didnt use so many words. It was more why don't you have it working yet... But this was after i explaned to him what it was and did. I had been tring with Redhat 7.3 and Apache1.3.2x and getting no place fast. I knew Apache 2.0 had dav built in and that it has been much more integrated to Apache and Redhat 8.0 happens to ship with Apache 2.0 so i boot my laptop to RH 8 while at chris' place last night and after just playing around and looking at the differnt config stlye of Apache 2.0 I went to work. It took less than 5 min of actual work or thinking (had to read some documention from Apache's site) and I had it working after the 1st try. I tried and tried with 1.3.2x but got no place and 2.0 sooo easy.

Now to upgrade molly and honey to RH 8? Honey will most likely be 1st cause we are going to be increasing her capacity again here pretty soon. And that could be a good time to upgrade the OS as well... Molly has just been a happy little camper for the past 6ish months. Andnow that I have started doing DB and PHP stuff. It makes me slightly hesitant. I hear apache 2.0 can be flaky with PHP. Molly here has the list of movies and stuff that I've seen in a Database that a section of php embeded in this very page goes out and asks for what movies ive seen in December. Then molly says these movies and then they are displayed. I think its pretty damn cool. I also got another PHP/MySQL page that I hope to bring up sometime soon.

Why did none of you finish my fill in the blank yesterday? It was prolly the most interesting statement i had heard all day. At least the strangest to me anyways.

Concert tomorrow night. Woohoo.

I should be sleeping. But can't so I thought I'd post. Say hi. See whats up. I'ts Friday and about damn time too. I will prolly defintalty be coming home and taking a nice long nap again after work today. So ready to be done with this week. 4 hours of work left this week.

8:14am: So i was on my way into work this morning and a couple of men walked by talking about something all i heard of the converstation was "a double barrel is good for intimidation, but"...

A double barrel is good for intimidation, but ________________________ please compleate this sentance or thought.

10:06pm: Apache 2.0 and WebDAV= EASY!!!

Its too early. I still have the rest of the day left too. 8 hours of work left this week and today is going to be another super slow next to worthles days as I don't have my computer back yet and that really limmits what i can do and get done at work. So i sit there in my cube staring at the wall and sometimes doodle or grab something to read but neither really help with the bordom or lack of things to do...

I am so ready for something new and a break. Perhaps this weekend will help.

I hate W.

8:10am:bleh. Sitting here in one of the empty class rooms. Watching some trafic go down state st and a fe birds fly by down town. Orange light from the sun reflecting off a building a couple blocks down the low clous moving over the city likea huge snail only to contrast in definition from the clouds that are higher then those contrasting the blue of the sky. Over all peaceful morning but empty feeling.

I was asked what keeps me going the other day. I didn't have much of an answer. So what keeps you going?

2 hours left of work today. 1 more day with out my computer at work, 2 more days of work left, then 3 days of weekend.

I am so tired of this week and ready to be done with the working portion of it. In truth I'm tired of many things about now... What I'm not tired of I'm bored or otherwise disenchanted or frustrated with. Burnout i think they call it.

so how do you deal with burn out?

I'm so ready to be back at home back in bed. Work sucks today. We have one of the most obnoxious annoying needy demanding bitchy disrespectful dependent evil groups today. And just my luck we are gonna eventualy merge with them. I'm not looking foward to that day at all.

I have no computer at my desk. My laptop seems to be blocked from accessing the outside world. Or its having issues, which i doubt cause it worked on friday with no problems at all here at work and nothing has changed on my end so i blame the NOC and the DAS DOIT team.

10:07am: I am so leaving early today. prolly just 10 or 15min but I am so out here... and the weather out side is frightful.

2 hours left....... maybe i will just stay in the server room and take a nap...

So I sorta started X-mas shoping. As I oredered a gift for someone last night. Still a buncha well few people on my list as its a short list of people to purchase for...

I seriously have nothing to say...

I've made a few minor changes here and there. Mostly just fixing stuff or making it look better. You may or may not notice changes. I may be cleaning things up on the site further and using more PHP/MySQL as it lightens up the number of files stored on the server and cleans things up some too. I've been having fun learning right now my skills in it are still fairly basic and remedial but I don't plan on stoping anytime soon so perhaps more complex and intersting things will be coming.

I'm thinking about rewriting the picture gallery and keeping 2 copys of all the pics a high (huge) res picture like there is now and then a lower res copy for ease of access and speed etc... but that project is prolly gonna be a nice long ways off..

Ok as long as i don't end up too busy to day I will be adding some stuff. I can now have all the stuff hosted here cause i managed to get my connection to my databases setup (wheee). So now its really a matter of cleaning things up a bit and modifying code and deciding where to put it. So bear with me folks...

I got all the work stuff taken care of that i needed to (yay). I also screwed up last night while at Chris' house. I was Telneted into molly and thought it was local terminal screen as i was in linux and they all look the same and I wanted to go back to windows so i type reboot... Nothin happens... Nothin happens. I stop and look and see that it was the wrong window and i restarted molly who had an up time of 112 days. but now is down to 0 days now cause i goofed. Uptime is kind of a geek interset. It wasnt even cause it crashed or time for upgrades it was cause i goofed...

11:14am: Ok I've added one of the things now, look left. Its nothing special but im excited cause that data(or lack there of) comes from a database rather than a static page. I have yet to see a moive this month but perhaps I will take care of that soon. I will now work on the other thing I wanted to bring live this week. Let me know what you think. I will also be adding more info/features to the list on the left I just wanted to get something up 1st cause i prmomised something. I promise more later...

3:19pm: Stupid laptop. Its power connector is going bad again. Next time im gonna have to look real good like and see if there is anything else i can do to solve the problem...

So that new stuff I've been talkin about is getting closer and and all just one problem.. I dont know how to make it look. I've been playin with it but thats not gotten me anyplace just from plain to plain ugly. So i guess its sorta ready. I will also be cleaning the code up bunches as time progesses and it grows (assuming it does grow, which it may not... ) The other bit is simply going to be the list of movies ive seen and a comment or two from me. Again its a matter of clean up and layout and again making tweeks to it mainly to learn more PHP and MySQL which are both a lot of fun.

Wow I just said a database system and programing langauge are fun. Geeky? Yes I do think so. A problem? No...

I finaly moved all the pictures out of incoming(don't bother its empty) to their new respective homes.

Now that it is finaly Friday it doesnt seem like it. Maybe its because I know I have to comeback sometime later today or tomorrow to prep for that class that starts on monday...

I've made even more progress on the new promised stuff. But the progress i made won't be noticed by users as its a for me only thing to help manage/maintain things... Its still a matter of styling things up and formating which i cant seem to think of a layout for the new section. Worst case I just let you people at it while its in its current form and play/look/whatever at whats there until snazz it up a bit... it functions it is just missing the form part. I always prefer fucntion over form but when you got both its a great thing too.. I'm sure I will get more done today its just I don't know what parts I'm going to do. Depending on what I end up doing today after work helps determine what i do or how much time i spend on it.

So ya Chris' boss really bugs me. I have a semi frantic message on my phone this morning from her rambeling on about software for a class I had asked about this a week or more ago from one of the people here to check on things and we had no word until today or yesterday on the software issue. But I gotta have the class ready by monday and we a full week long class in that room right now so that means I get to work a) friday night b) saturday c) sunday d) really fuckin early monday morning. I personaly am thinkings a or b.. I can most likely get a good portion of it done on friday before I have to deal with the actual class room portion...

The new stuff is pretty close. Infact a few of you hvae seen it in a useable stage. I have only to clean it up and make it pretty left to do (I think).. So as long as I don't end up to distracted for the rest of the week it will be up by the end of it... I will prolly work on a few of the things that i want to do for it while at work today.

I've got a slight cold and have been all pluged up and sneezy. Oh well hopefuly I will be over it soon. By this weekend for Collyn's vist with any luck.

9:02am: Is it just me or does it seem that Apple has been getting lots of press lately? For just being apple and having the kind of fanitical users that they do... I don't know how to feel about as I am nearly one of them but the only diffrence is I boot my old Mac up a few times a year just to be sure it works or play with something on it. Until I get my ibook that is. I guess for apple the press for nothin is good. I was gonna get one anyways but the more i read and figure out and learn about them the more i want one. Chris thinks im sick cause i want an ibook. I just want something better and diffrent. Don't get me wrong I love my Sony Viao FX-240 laptop and my various other non mac hardware. I don't know what I would do with out molly who also is my fileserver and does some DHCP on the side and anything else that I decide I want to learn. I write all my php and html out on her and then test it as im writing it rather than writing it then having to upload it and rewrite it and reupload it i can do it all online. Molly was home to this very page for several months and even Kala's page and Sigh's page. But with my ibook I can do my code on it as well as test it on it. Not that I can't with my laptop now its just a huge production to do.

mmm an apple with a unix core... sounds delicious to me...

9:51am: I always come up with good Titles when I don't need them, its either to early or too late. like this should have been something like "23 pots to hell" well i like it. I've had other good ones I just can't really remeber them or id use em...

My PHP/MySQL learning is coming along nicely. I'm just to lazy to make it all pretty and such right now as its only test phases. I have a few ideas and things im gonna do with it. Unfourtnatly this will again reside on my Picture server until i can work things out diffrently or until i decide to get rid of it. Hopefuly with in the next few weeks I will have one or 2 of the ideas online for your uses/viewing... I'ts mostly a matter of cleaning stuff up and making it pretty and useable by the users (thats you)

3:53:pm: The new stuff that I speak of is starting to act like its working but not totaly its a matter of waiting for a lil help from people and cleaning my code up and such. I will get something out there by the end of the week (hopefuly...).

Ive been coding too much again I keep going for the ESC key so i can :w or :wq wich is a VIM thing and thats what i do most of my coding in..

6:47pm: Here I was wondering why the day seemed so long. Its cause I skipped my nap to work on webpages and databases and made some progess too in fact one of the things is oh so close to be deployed. I know its nothing big but im still very much learning. If my eyes didn't sting as it is i would prolly be working on taking it live and messing with my server setup to take it live, but maybe tomorrow sometime.

The Holidays are here. I can't belive that its almost newyears already 2003 and my 21st birthday which everyone seems to be more exited about than me. So i will be able to drink legaly. So i can go to cassinos and gamble. Neither of which sound terribly exiting or great. I've never drank before if i wanted to I just have to make a phone call. But for some reason everyone wants me to drink. Apperntly i ruined newyears last year cause i chose not to drink so Cat decided not to then Taylor and so on and so forth. Til the only one was Chris. Last i knew peer pressure was supposed to work the other way around... I really just have no drive or desire to drink. I see no gain in it. Will it make me smarter? more able to get tasks done? give me extra energy? wake me up in the morning? It wont do a damn one of em. Maybe it can help unwind a bit but its not like my life and work stress me out that much not to mention im too lazy to let them or care enough to let them (not that i dont get stressed while at work but not when im away from it).

5:37pm: The view from work of the sunset is beautiful. Somone remind me to bring my camera to work next monday for a shot or 4.

Already Sunday. Wow 4 days seems like 2 and now and I want 2 more. Oh well tomorrow will be back to work and to the grind. But its ok cause I got a concert comming up and an overnight trip to the snow. Not to mention X-mas and my B-day but neither of those got me super thrilled. I still gotta go buy people presents and figure out what to tell people to get me cause they are still asking and i still dont know.

7:16pm: The whole php MySQL thing is coming along nicely still really rough but im still learning... then i gotta figure out how to connect to mysql server though my firewall... then new features and stuff for here... maybe...