Tuesday Matt asked if Kala and I would like to go out on the boat that evening. We jumped at the chance. We swam. Matt did some Skiing. I wake boarded for the the first time this year, on a new board too. It was a great reprieve and better than the escape to a theater or mall in its own way as we got to be active and outside and make the most of the warmth.
Wednesday Kala and I started to rearrange our tiny little place, that we will hopefully be leaving in the next month or two. But it was nearly impossible to even do little things with out needing to take a break and towel off sweat and have some water. Yesterday we pretty much finished the rearrangement, I think we may still have some details to work out but those will work them selves out in time.
I am in a curious and what I think of as an all too common situation.
I managed to break it down into basically three parts,life styles, themes, or whatever.
Things experienced:
Last week I got an invite to go to a driving school in South Carolina sometime later this year. But I'm not sure I'm gonna be able to because of other travel commitments/expenses.
Things wanted:
I want a new DSLR, a second flash, and more photographic equipment and other various gadgets, and toys. I'd also like a mac-mini. Also Kala and I are planning on moving to a larger place hopefully before summer is out.
Things created:
I get creative urges to make things. Piece things together, make gadgets, lamps, lights, photos, art, etc. But these often require tools, supplies, materials and facilities I that I just don't have or have access too.
I simply don't have the means to make it all happen all the time which I'm sure is the case for many of us.
We have all known a starving artist, the aunt and uncle who travel all over all the time, then the person with all the latest fashion and accessories.
I have recently found my self somewhat torn on which to pursue. Do I want to make that thing, or get the new flash for the camera which would lead to more creative stuff later, or do I go learn to drive in South Carolina. Then again there is always rent and deposits to be made for the new place.
It's no secret that I quite enjoy photography. I do think I'm pretty good at it. Still plenty of room to get better of course.
I would love to make some money from it someday, somehow. I think I have what it takes. But at the same time I don't want to market/promote myself. Nor do I want to deal with some of the aspects of taking pictures for money. The one time I was approached to do a wedding I passed it up because as I didn't want that responsibility or pressure.
Though as more time passes the urge to try and do something with my camera and gear and attempt to make some money has only grown. I've got some options and that I frequently consider, but I'm lazy. I know it could be as simple as an ad on craigslist as a lens for hire, or doing some microstock/stock work.
My ego wants people to come to me and seek me out for photography, but people can't find me if I don't put my self out there which feels scary and risky so I don't. A conundrum.
I've got a three day weekend approaching meaning only one more day of work (not counting the one I'm just starting). Kala and I have decided to do very little with the extra day off, as we spent most of last weekend running our selves a bit ragged and I think we may both still be feeling the Sunday night drive back from Sacramento, of which we didn't arrive home until 3:30am. Then we got up and went to work. Kala went to a job interview then work. So Friday may just be a lazy lazy day.
The 4th of July is the mark of the first attempt or start of something with Kala back in 2002. It didn't work out so well that time, neither of us had the tools or means to make it really work long distance (Salem and Sacramento). We didn't have the money to travel it regularly, we didn't have much experience with relationships, I was whiny and clingy, she was a bit flighty and skittish, all this didn't exactly add up to a recipe for success. But here we are round two and things are going quite well I think.